Sunday, July 31, 2005
Life doesn't get any better...
What did I do today? NOTHING! (Well, some laundry, and I sweated my brains out, but...) Other than spend lots of time with my babies, we did relatively nothing (everybody's too sick). Oh, but just look!

Snicker, snicker!Gimme a BIG smile!So sweet together!Now that's love!There I happy!Gimme your BIGGEST smile!

Like, oh my goodness! Am I not the luckiest mom in the whole wide world! Are these not the two sweetest, cutest babies in the WORLD! They are going to be the best brother and sister, ever! They sure do love each other! I sure do love them! Trey and I are SOOOOOOOOO lucky!

I hope you have a wonderful, terrific day! Talk to you later!
posted by Christi at 11:12 PM | Permalink | 12 comments
Saturday, July 30, 2005
Oh well...
Well, yesterday was good, as far as potty training goes. I think. Today, on the other hand...TJ flat out refused to even try to use it at all. I tried everything, even woke Trey up early so TJ could pee with him. No luck. I told him time and time again that he couldn't pee in his big-boy underwear, and he said he got it everytime, then went and peed right in them! I tried to just let him freeball it, but he had a total fit! (I was even willing to take the risk of pee on the floor!) I don't know if this is how it's supposed to go. We read the It's Potty Time! book that he loves about three hundred times, and I constantly reminded him about how he could put stars on his chart. Nothing. I got the same thing over and over again, "I don't want to right now, Mommy." I feel like I may have made things worse than better by constantly harrassing him about going. I didn't try to force him, b/c the last thing I want to do is make him scared to go or whatever would happen. My next thought is that I can go and buy some actual real underwear and let him wear those. I think I read somewhere that if I do that he would actually feel the wetness and not like it, then want to go to the toilet. Now I'm starting to see what takes so long. Any ideas, tips, anything? Am I doing this all wrong? Why does this feel like the biggest challenge of my life so far? My mom even suggested I use reverse psychology with him, since he's determined to do the opposite of whatever I ask him (really, he is). I did that, and he did say he wanted to use the toilet and not pee in his underwear, he just still wouldn't do it! I already want to give up!

It probably isn't helping matters that I'm sick. TJ is sick, too. I'm sure that if she isn't already, that Taryn will be sick in a matter of time. That freaks me out, b/c if she gets sick, I don't remember what I'm supposed to do. I know she can't have Tylenol or Motrin yet, or any other medicine. It surely doesn't help matters when you have a sick kid and you're sick yourself. All I wanted to do today was sleep, but that wasn't happening. TJ managed to go climb into his bed today while I was making lunch, and sleep until I finished eating. The minute I finished he immediately woke up and was good to go for the rest of the day! Little turd! Maybe tomorrow he'll be more sick, and want to sleep more. One can only wish, right....

Igh! I wish I had more exciting things to talk about. I feel stigmatized now after the big to-do about Mommy Blogs. I don't want to be stereotyped into that category, or any category for that matter. However, it sure looks like that's what I've got here. Must. Get. Life. Outside. Of. Home. Yeah, like that'll be happening anytime soon! Perhaps I could talk about the stresses of having to be a bridesmaid for two weddings in the coming year. Yeah, that's it. While I'm at it, I'll take up a fund to help pay for the stupid dresses and shoes! Serves me right for having my own bridesmaids! Shoulda known they would come back one day and make me return the favor!

Alrighty then, I guess I'll be cutting this one off for now. I hope you are all having a great day, as I'm sure mine is not so great, and uneventful. I'll talk at you later!
posted by Christi at 11:13 PM | Permalink | 11 comments
BIG day!
Today, TJ officially began potty training! I wasn't going to start until tomorrow, but somewhere in the middle of the day I decided I'd make his little potty chart, and it began. We made a chart that has pee-pee, poo-poo and washing hands on it. Then he colored it (Well, all over it, actually) and I explained to him what we were going to do with it and told him that he gets little colored stars for each thing he does. After we hung up the chart next to his bathroom, he was totally not interested in trying to go pee, which was fine with me. However, while bathing this evening, he suddenly wanted to (I think so he could find a reason to get out of the bathtub for a minute!). He stood up just like Daddy does (which was so awesome, b/c I didn't know how I was going to teach him that!), aimed and peed right into the little hole! Sure, it was only, like, two drops, but I was so proud of him! Then we washed his hands and he put his two little stickers on the chart! It was very cool. After his bath, he put on his first pair of big-boy underwear (pull-up). I tried a few more times to get him to go, and he went and tried once, but to no avail. No problem, though. Tomorrow is another day. Of course I called both of his grandmas to tell them the good news, and I can't wait till his daddy gets home so I can tell him! Now you know, too! Isn't it exciting! I'm so nervous! My baby boy is growing up! Now I have the fun of asking him four hundred times a day if he has to use the bathroom, and having to find the restroom at every public place first thing!

On another note, the boy now knows which cd is what game for his computer games. He knows where the cd's go, and how to open them on the computer (as in, where to click and what to click on) and how to close them. This, to me, is all a little scary. He picks up on stuff wayyyyy too fast! Pretty soon he won't need me at all.

I want to do something artsy and crafty with TJ. Something that involves glue sticks and construction paper and scissors kinda thing. Any ideas? I mean, I can think of something, I'm sure, and it doesn't really matter what, but I want to do something cool. He was so excited about making that little bracelet at church on Sunday, and I think he's ready to do more than just color in his coloring books and draw scribbles on stuff. Today, he saw his bracelet on the side of the fridge, and he said, "Don't mess up my bracelet. Take good care of it." He's so proud of himself, and I want to do something cool with him like that. I'm just afraid that I will try to do something above his level. Any ideas?

Okay, I guess I'm gonna go now. It's late, and I need to sleep for a few minutes before the baby decides to wake up again! Have a great day, and I'll talk to you later!
posted by Christi at 1:14 AM | Permalink | 11 comments
Friday, July 29, 2005
Yaa for Pictures!!!
Hey, go here to see pics from our trip to the EdVenture museum that Echo took the other day:
posted by Christi at 12:01 AM | Permalink | 6 comments
Thursday, July 28, 2005
I'm not ready!
First off, let me say that I'm loving Trey right now! Today he let me sleep in, washed the dishes and cleaned the house before I came home last night, took care of the kids for the most part, and made lunch and dinner tonight. It was a real day off for me. Thank you, thank you, thank you, Trey!

What sucks, though, is that I think I'm getting sick. Yesterday my throat started to hurt, and my nose got a little stuffy. I took Nyquil last night, and it made me feel a little better, but I still don't feel so great. Oh, and I forgot to mention that Trey fed the baby all last night for me b/c I won't wake up when taking Nyquil! Of course, I want to take some again tonight, but he won't be able to get up to feed her b/c he has to work tomorrow. I can't help but feel a sense of dread about tomorrow, b/c Trey will be at work, and I won't be at my mom's anymore to get help! I hope I feel better tomorrow. There's a mom's group thing tomorrow at the bowling alley, and I want to go!
Wish me luck.

Taryn's face is finally clearing up. Now she is even more beautiful, if that's even possible! Renee, take note of the adorable outfit!

Hopefully tomorrow I'll have something more juicy to write. Today was pretty laid back. I hope you guys have a great day, and I'll talk to you later!
posted by Christi at 10:12 PM | Permalink | 4 comments
Trivia Thursday
Okay, I have an idea. I say we start something called Trivia Thursday. Of course, I'll probably forget after this one, but it seems like fun if I can remember.

So here's my trivia for today. Nirvana sang a song called "Lake of Fire", which TJ happens to like. However, it was not their song. It was actually a song belonging to another band. Who was this band?

Well, that's it. I hope you have a good day, and I'll talk to you later.
posted by Christi at 3:24 PM | Permalink | 7 comments
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Could someone turn on the A/C, please!
So I didn't step foot outside today at all. Why is that, you ask? Because it's too hot to even think of going outside unless I have an outfit equipt with an a/c! Igh! I'm supposed to be going to Julia's mom's pool tomorrow, though, so that should be nice.

Anyway, yesterday we met Echo and kids at the Edventure Children's Museum. It was awesome. I wish I had a $100, b/c I would get a season pass for the family. There was a lot of cool stuff to do, like a little tiny grocery store, and a restaurant, and a fire was cool. My favorite part was the grocery store, b/c TJ took his shopping so seriously, and, well, it was just neat! Echo should be posting some pics soon from there, and you can either go there to see them, or I'll get some here eventually. Dummy me forgot my camera!

Last night we had a surprise birthday party for Bo, my step-dad. Today was his 30th birthday. Yaaa for Bo! There were some people from his work, my mom's work, and family there. It was at Sticky Fingers, where my brother works, b/c they go there to eat every Monday night. So Bo shouldn't have been suspicious. However, he had overheard someone at work talking about it earlier in the day, so he already knew going there what was up. We were in the back room waiting to yell surprise, and my brother took him back there to "show him something". He walked in, we yelled "SURPRISE!!!" and he said, "Uh huh, I didn't think this many people would show up." Yeah, the money shot...blah! He wasn't surprised at all. It was fun, though. I was happy that there were so many people who came out to see him, and get the free food, of course! Bo is the quiet and less social type, so it's good that he didn't run out the door when he saw everyone! Oh, and my mom had a camera, but forgot to take any pics. She did take a few, however, at TJ's request. Here they are:

He begged my mom to take pictures of his food. Silly boy!

One more thing...three wonderful people having fun at the party:

That's my mom, my brother and case you had no idea! Doesn't my mom look great there! I love that pic of her! (It's just too bad it's botched by our heads, well, my neck, to be more precise!)

Oh, and here's happy Bo, the birthday boy:

Sadly, there are three pics of TJ's food, and one of Bo. Too funny!

Okay, I guess that's enough for now. I'm tired, and I want to go to bed. Talk to you later. Have a great day!
posted by Christi at 12:11 AM | Permalink | 12 comments
Monday, July 25, 2005
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posted by Christi at 4:42 PM | Permalink | 10 comments
Sunday, July 24, 2005
Long, HOT day
Well, I did it. I left Taryn with someone other than family for the first time today. I was thinking it was the first time I'd left her ever, but then I remembered that I left her with my mom to go to the movies a wee bit ago. However, today at church I left her in the nursery. At first I was cool. I actually felt quite liberated and excited to be free of both children and with other people. We went to the McDonald's down the street from church for Sunday School today, and it was rather nice. Then on my way to the service I checked on them both, w/o TJ seeing me of course, and everything was good. So on to the service I went. Somewhere between the announcements and the sermon, I started getting sick to my stomach, and feeling the need to run out of there as fast as I could to the nursery and check on Taryn and leave. I almost did right after the sermon. However, Ruth, my buddy, wanted to go and see her after the service, so I stayed. I'm glad I did, b/c there was no reason for me to rush back...she was fine and dandy.

Oh, and TJ got to go to the 3/4 class, b/c there was no one there in the 2's room. Of course, there's never anyone there in the 2's room during Sunday School, so I think I'm gonna try and get them to let him go in there every week. He made a bracelet, and he was so proud of himself. He came running up to me when I came to get him to show it to me! Then, when we got home, I had to carefully cut it off of him b/c he didn't want to mess it up or tear it! Of course you know I must now save this bracelet forever! I asked him if he had fun, and he said he did, except for when the person hit him. I inquired further, and he said the person knocked him down. I said, "Oh really?" Then he added that said person would not let him play. I'm about ninety percent sure this didn't happen, but it makes me wonder where he got such a wild imagination from. The other day I asked him if he had fun at the playground when he was with his daddy. He said yes, but that a boy hit him. I asked him what he did when the boy hit him. He said, "I cried, poor me," and made a big pouty face. That boy is nuts!

Oh, here's the bracelet:

I'm so proud of my big ol', big ol' boy!

Oh, and I just want to add...Even when it's really early in the morning, and the last thing you want to do is be up with your little newborn baby who's decided that she's ready to start her day, nothing will brighten your outlook more than a little tiny person who is all smiles and giggles! Yesterday she woke up at an unholy hour (7 am, but in my house that's WAYYYY too early!) and was ready to go. I was so ready to be mad, but I looked down and smiled at her. Then she smiled back (the first time for me). So I smiled again. She smiled again. This went on for about half an hour. She was so happy and giggly! I wanted so bad to take a picture, but you know if I had moved it would have been ruined. I wasn't giving up that moment! I guess this is why people have kids, eh?

I hope you have a great day, and I'll talk to you soon!
posted by Christi at 10:17 PM | Permalink | 9 comments
Saturday, July 23, 2005
To the pool!
We just got back from the pool, and once the littlest one is actually asleep and not just pondering the idea, I'm off to dreamland with her and TJ. Gina called and invited us to join her and the kids at our pool here at the apt. complex, and it was so fun! Taryn actually got in, too! I have the cutest bathing suit for her, and it fit pretty well, so I couldn't resist putting it on her! She wouldn't wake up the whole time I had her in there. Then, when I took her out, she was wide awake! I forgot to bring a camera, though, so I don't have any pics of her actually in the pool. However, I do have this:

Oh, could you just pop it's so cute! Do you think it's bad that I think her little belly hanging out is just the cutest thing in the world?

I was pretty proud of TJ, too. He went right to the water before I even got close to ready and was swimming like crazy. Of course, once I was in the water, and especially with the baby, he was a big ol' baby himself! "Mommy, I want you to help me...Mommy, I want you to hold me..." You get the picture...Oh, and Blake and Julia must have done some hardcore practicing at swimming when they were at their grandparents' house, b/c they were swimming like fish!

Oh, and tell me I'm not bad luck! Yesterday I met my friend who worked with me at DJJ for lunch at Chuck E. Cheese. Trey went and played with TJ while we talked. I found out a lot of things, like I was held responsible for a rumor that happened after I was gone! Oh well...I certainly learned you can't trust anyone, at least not where you work. Anyway, I hung out with her once a while back (pre-pregnancy) and we went out for margaritas after work. When she left to go home, she got a speeding ticket. No big deal, right? I mean, for me that is. Yesterday, as she was driving home, she had an accident and someone rear-ended her! She called me and told me we can't hang out anymore, b/c everytime we do she has something bad happen! I can't say I don't wonder myself...

Well, I guess that's all that's interesting right now. I'm working on getting an outside life so that my blogging life will be more interesting. Wish me luck! Have a great day, and I'll see you soon!
posted by Christi at 3:57 PM | Permalink | 7 comments
Trey is jealous...

I don't know if you remember, but last week I went with a church group to make pottery at Two Peas in a Pot. Yesterday I went and picked up the cup I made. Trey is jealous and upset. Why, you ask? Because I didn't put his name on it anywhere. So, I guess I'll have to go back now and make one that says "LOVING WIFE OF TREY" (I said I'd just put Trey's wife, but he wanted me to go and put love into it, too!) Don't chastise me on how lame it is. I never claimed to have any creativity AT ALL. It was fun, though, and it turned out much better than the first attempt Trey and I made at doing our own pottery!

Well, I'm at a loss right now. I hope you have a great day and I'll talk to you soon, hopefully with something worth reading about!
posted by Christi at 1:34 AM | Permalink | 10 comments
Thursday, July 21, 2005
Here we go!
II've got Monkey Butt! This, of course, is for K8! Love ya!

Renee's outfit #2Here's outfit number 2, Renee...I like this with her coloring. I think she looks so cute! It's probably still too big, but I don't care!
posted by Christi at 2:06 PM | Permalink | 10 comments
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
Ha ha! I'm a druggy now!
Last night, I got HIGH! It was great! Just ask Karla. I was talking to her on the computer last night about two hours after I took my brand new pill, and BOOM! It just kicked in all of a sudden, and my hands got really heavy and sluggish and I couldn't control my fingers very well. Then my head got kind of airy, and everything was really funny to me. Every other word I typed to Karla was "too funny" it seemed like. That was some good stuff! I slept like a rock, too! The baby got up for food around 6 am or so, and usually I'm up with the first whimper. Last night it took till she was like, "Uh, uh, uh..." Well, at least she didn't cry! I'm waiting now to see if it happens again tonight....wish me luck!

So, I don't know if anyone other than me (on the face of the earth, that is) watched So You Think You Can Dance tonight, but man was it funny! There was some pretty atrocious dancing on there! I had no idea that break dancing was still that popular! Oh, and my all-time favorite tv moment in a while: "Oh, how sweet that your dad is here to support you! (said by the host)" "This is my fiance'(said by contestant)." The guy was pretty old, and the girl wasn't. It was too funny!

I was just reading a book, Making Children Mind without Losing Yours, and it said something that I really liked. It was talking about the whole "Spare the rod, spoil the child" thing. That is not the actual comment in the Bible. The actual quote is "He who spares the rod hates his son, but he who loves him is careful to discipline him." So, nowhere in that does it say to spank your child. I love this book already!

I realize this post is quite boring. I'm sorry. I didn't do anything really exciting today, and right now I'm talking to my friend from DJJ. Yesterday was her last day there (not a planned thing) and she's filling me in on all the dirt. Undoubtedly I got blamed for a lot of crap once I was gone! Go figure! Maybe once I know it all, I'll tell you all the bad things I did!

Alrighty then, I'll talk to you later. Have a great day!
posted by Christi at 11:38 PM | Permalink | 14 comments
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
I dare to defy Tom...
Ha ha! Screw you, Tom Cruise! I got a prescription for anti-depressants today, and I plan to use them and feel better!

Anyway, I went to my doctor today, and I'm just fine, she said. I actually saw the dr. instead of the midwife I was scheduled to see, which was strange. However, she was pretty cool. I told her how I've been losing my mind lately, and how my temper's been getting shorter and shorter and being a mom is getting harder and harder. We both agreed that I'm not depressed, thank goodness, but that I do probably have postpartum blues, which I already thought. So, she hooked me up with some samples of Lexipro, and a prescription, and I'm supposed to use it for a few months till I can get my brain back in order. I hope it works. I would love to be a happy person all the time! Like, when people ask how I'm doing, I'd love to say, "Fine, thank you," and mean it!

Oh, and I got my letter filled out, so now I can get unemployment again starting Sunday. Hooray! I feel like I'm a little pathetic being so excited about getting unemployment, but hey, I paid for it! Plus, being able to pay some bills and eat is always worth getting excited over! I think I may have a job lined up for when it's done, too, that will work with my schedule and I'll still be able to be with the babies most of the time. We'll see...

Oh, and you gotta see Taryn. She is dressed in her new outfit...brought by the clothes fairy Renee. I had these little duckie socks, and I was so upset, b/c I didn't think I'd get to use them with a matching outfit (I have a duckie onesie, but it's for when she's older). "Fear not," Renee said, "I have just the answer!" She looks SO cute! Oh, and there were lots of other completely adorable outfits, too! I'm so excited, I may just change her clothes ten times a day now! Thanks Renee!

Oh, and Curlytrouble's blanket is getting quite the use around here as well. My mom loved it when I took it to her house, and Taryn does as well! Thanks Tammy!

Okay, talk to you later! Have a great day!
posted by Christi at 12:31 PM | Permalink | 15 comments
Monday, July 18, 2005
BIG moment!
Taryn just had her first genuine smile! She laughed and laughed when Trey made some silly sound for her...something like "Goowaaaaa goowaaaaa!" She found that to be quite hilarious. Check it out:
posted by Christi at 10:23 AM | Permalink | 8 comments
Sunday, July 17, 2005
Home again...
I didn't want to come home, but, alas, I had to. So, here I am again.

Anyway, I'm kinda happy in a weird way. A girl I used to work with at DJJ found my blog online and wrote to me. We talked this morning on Yahoo, and she told me that M misses me, and finally realizes that I was the only person who gave a crap about him. Now, for most of you, this makes no sense. However, if you used to read back when I was still working, you may remember me talking about a student of mine named M who used to make my life a living hell. However, for some strange reason, I worried about him day and night. When I was fired, I could have cared less to leave that place, but I was worried about him. So it was good to hear that he actually noticed I'm not there anymore. I so wish I could talk to him, though! On the up side as well, it was great to get to talk to my fellow co-worker, who won't be there much longer, and hopefully we'll get together sometime and hang out. I went out pre-pregnancy once and had a margarita with her, and it was fun. It'd be cool to chill together again!

So I was talking to Trey about stuff last night, and it hit me what's so very stressful about my new full-time job. I've often wondered why I feel like it's so hard being a full-time SAHM, and I realized it's mostly mental (although still quite strenuous at times!). Okay, so here it is: As a SAHM, and really as a mother altogether, you worry, day and night, about the lives of your children and making sure they grow up right. I want my kids to be well-behaved and have good manners and values, and every move I make can affect that. There's the behavior, which I'm in charge of 90+% of the time, and that's rough. As I told Trey, if someone at work will not listen to him, he has a set path of consequences to follow, that eventually end in that person being fired if they won't do what is asked of them. However, I can't fire my kids. I can't kill them. So, when my set consequences will not work, I am forced to find new ones. At some point you can go no further, and if it's still not working, you're stuck just dealing with that problem. So, I could deal with the same problem over and over again, day in and day out, and never have it go away. Fortunately, I've been lucky enough to have my consequences pretty much solve the problems up to now, but I fear the day that TJ or Taryn realize that there's nowhere else for me to go at a certain point! Then there's the babies' health. This one really freaks me out. It used to just be me worrying about TJ, who happens to be quite the little acrobat and gutsy guy, and him falling and hurting himself, or getting into something that could hurt him. Now it's even worse. Now I have the fear that if I leave the room for even a second, he might go and "hug" or drop something on the baby and hurt her, or even kill her. So it's doubled. I also have to worry about what he eats. I don't want my kid growing up to be a junk food junky, and I want him to be healthy and get all the nutrients he needs. However, I'm not a good food planner, and it stresses me out to have to feed him three times a day and make sure he's not eating too much of one thing, or too much junk. Let's add to that the fact that I want my kids to be brilliant, and live up to all of the potential that they have. There are those days when I'm just not feeling it, and I don't do much with TJ. Then I feel guilty. There are those days when we just work on numbers, which he rocks at, and I know he needs to work on the ABC's. Again, guilt. Sometimes he watches too much tv. Guilt again. Now, how many people go off to work everyday, and feel guilty about the stuff they do and don't do while there? If they don't finish everything, they just do it the next day. Then there's the actual household stuff. I make a list in my mind each day of what I realistically want to get done. Usually it doesn't happen, and I'm left feeling like a slacker, and that I've accomplished nothing. Lastly, but surely not least, there's the whole outside pressure you get from the world. I feel like I have to make great leaps and bounds in order to be respected as someone who's actually doing something each day and earning the right to stay home with my kids. Then there are the people who don't agree with the choices I make as far as discipline and what I teach my kids. At times I feel guilty, yet again, b/c I dont mean to let TJ hear me say words that he shouldn't know, but it happens. My total fear is having him go to someone's house one day and yelling out "Dammit!" It's just a matter of time. What I think, though, is the most overwhelming of all of this SAHM thing, is that you can NEVER walk away from it. It's 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, and you can't just quit. I've tried. If your baby is crying, you can't just say, "Forget this. I'm outta here." Well, you can, but unlike other jobs, when you do, you better get ready for some jail time! TJ is being an ass, I can't just say, "I'm leaving for a while to calm down." I mean, yes, I can go into another room, but he can still get to me, and most likely will. If not, as soon as I enter the room, I'll just be in fear that he'll hurt himself! Oh, I tell you, this job is just SO MUCH! So, anyway, I've figured out what's going on. Now I just need to come to grips with it and gain my peace. Sure, there are rewards beyond any rewards you can get from any other job, but hey, this is long enough. I'll save that for another post!

Okay, I'll talk to you later. Gotta go "fix" TJ's radio (the CD ended, so now it's broken!). Have a great day!
posted by Christi at 5:44 PM | Permalink | 9 comments
Saturday, July 16, 2005

Okay, so tonight we went to see Ashley and Leah for a while. It was fun. Then we stopped off to see my sister at work for a few minutes before she got busy. It was about 11 o'clock when we left there to head home to my mom's house. Directly after the exit to get off to go to my mom's, traffic on the interstate was at a dead stop. I joked and told Trey they were people waiting to go on the new bridge tomorrow. We had a little chuckle. Then, when we got home, my mom said that they had closed off I-26 for the bridge tomorrow! Ummm, it wasn't even midnight yet, and you don't just close an interstate off like that! This traffic was a good fifteen miles back from downtown Charleston! That is just INSANE!!! We were thinking we might try to go see the bridge tomorrow...never mind! My mom said they are expecting about 5000 people for the invitation-only affair they are having at the bridge tomorrow, but they only have parking for 1000. That should be interesting! Guess we'll see it on a future trip!

So anyway, my stories of the bridge. Apparently, the smaller, Grace Memorial, bridge, used to be two-way traffic back in the day. Now, I would like to point out (and check what Julia wrote on the last post for further agreement) that in today's times, with our small cars, that bridge was hardly ever big enough for two lanes of traffic, going the same way, that is. Therefore, back in the days of hoopties and big ol' cars, the thought of going two ways on it is terrifying! My mom said that when she was little, she could literally stick her hand just barely out of the window and touch the passing cars! According to Wesley (re: his comment to the last post), our dad used to drag race on it. That's scary!

Now, well, I guess not anymore,'s only one-way, but still two lanes. I used to babysit over in Mt. Pleasant, so I actually got quite used to driving it for a while there, and it wasn't too scary to me. However, that was long after my first few experiences on it. Once, I went on a field trip to a park out in Mt. Pleasant, and we had to go over the newer bridge. We were on a funky school bus, which sucked enough as it was. To top that, it started to rain on the way there (which ended up cutting the trip short), and the roads were very slippery. Traffic was stopped on the bridge, and a kid behind me told me that there was a hole in it. He said that they didn't have anything to fix it with, so they just put some glass over it. That was all it took for me. I was terrified beyond belief! I was so convinced that we were too heavy to drive over that glass w/o breaking it, and we were going to fall into the water. Plus, I couldn't swim! This was in, like, second grade, and I still remember it like it was yesterday...

Yet another memory of the bridge is one night while I was out with some friends. Well, sorta...I was with Julia, my best, best, BEST friend, and our brothers, Micah and Jimmy. We had just dropped acid, and it was my first time (one of the very few, I might add). To top that, we were already at the Isle of Palms when we did it, and to get home, we had to go over the old bridge. I want to add that when the wind blows, not even hard, you can feel the old bridge move. I read today that on a scale of 1 to 100, 100 being the safest and most up to code, the new bridge was rated at a 4, and the new bridge was FAR, FAR better than the old one! Anyway, I digress...So we had to go over the bridge to get home, and I was driving. The acid was just starting to kick in for everyone, and our brothers were going NUTS in the back seat, screaming and singing and jumping around. It was particularly windy that night (or maybe it just seemed that way!), and it was the first time I'd ever driven over the bridge. We were listening to The Cranberries, and when we hit the bridge, we were listening to Zombie. Micah and Jimmy went crazy, as if they were in the band, playing a live concert in front of millions! I was not down with that. So I quickly changed it to one of the really slow and relaxing songs at the end of the CD, Dreaming My Dreams, and focused on staying calm. Julia sat in the front seat beside me and coached me! She kept saying, "Christi, you're doing really good. Just stay straight. Good job." Oh, and like Lillian in Julia's comment, I, too, drove right down the middle of the two lanes. Fortunately, there wasn't a cop at the end that night...that would have been pretty fun, eh? (As a matter of fact, for a long time I just thought you were allowed to drive down the middle at night!) In my mind it's quite funny, or something like that. Yet another memory that is like it happened yesterday for me!

Well, I guess this is enough for now. I could probably think of a bunch more, but I'll stop here. This is longer than I thought it would be. If you haven't already, feel free to add. I'm definitely going to miss those bridges. I have lots of memories from them. One day ask my neice what happens to little girls who are bad...she REALLY doesn't like the old bridge! Alright, you guys have a great day! Talk to you later.
posted by Christi at 12:13 AM | Permalink | 7 comments
Thursday, July 14, 2005
Pretty exciting stuff!
I just watched the fireworks show on tv for the opening of the new Arthur Ravenel Bridge in Charleston. It is replacing the two old Cooper River Bridges that were far beyond safe years and years ago. It was pretty spectacular...supposedly the biggest firework show in this part of the country, ever. It went on for half an hour, and right when it ended, down came the rain! I would have loved to be there. It would have been SO COOL to see in person. However, we just got to Charleston at about 5:30, and supposedly people were lining up at 8 am this morning to find a spot! CRAZY! There won't even be any festivities until Saturday, when they officially open it and let people drive across it. So they just waited around all day....yeah, tv will be fine!

The old bridges...The smaller, older one is the Grace Memorial Bridge, and the larger, newer one is the Silas Pearman Bridge.
The brand new Arthur Ravenel Bridge! Note the old ones in the background.

The old bridges will be torn down, due to the fact that they are not up to code, and large ships can barely fit underneath them. It seems so sad to think that the bridges will be gone soon, having been around for so long.

Here's a little bit of history, for anyone who's interested. It's a little long, but quick and interesting reading:

The need for a crossing of the Cooper River and Town Creek had been longstanding. The issue was how it should be done, and who would finance it. The solution came in 1928 when the dream of Charlestonian John P. Grace and others of building a Cooper River Bridge materialized, with financial backing from H.M. Byllesby and Company of Chicago and its allied financial group.

The 2.71-mile bridge, later to be named the Grace Memorial Bridge, was built in just 17 months, at a total cost of approximately $6 million. It was opened with a three-day celebration on Aug. 8, 1929.

The bridge was designed by Waddell and Hardesty of New York, with Charles Kyes Allen as their resident engineer in charge of construction. The sub-structure was built by the Foundation Company of New York and C. E. Hillyer of Jacksonville, Fla. The superstructure was built by McClintic-Marshall Company of Pittsburgh, Pa., and Virginia Bridge and Iron Company of Roanoke, Va. The main span of the bridge, 1050 feet between supports, was the fifth longest in the world, 150 feet above the river and 15 feet higher than the Brooklyn Bridge in New York.

The new facility, which was the largest bridge of its type on the world, was operated as a toll bridge by the Cooper River Bridge, Inc. John P. Grace was the company’s president. The toll for crossing the bridge was 50 cents.

In 1946, the state bought the bridge and removed the tolls. That same year, a freighter rammed into it, ripping out a 240-foot section. Three steel girder spans had to be replaced.

In 1959, three spans over Drum Island were widened for emergency parking. In 1965, the fender system for Pier 2 in Town Creek was built, and extensive major repairs were made to Pier 6. The west end of the bridge was widened in 1967 to provide an additional lane of traffic coming off the bridge.

In 1979, due to extensive metal deterioration, an 8-ton axle weight limit was posted on the bridge. In recent years, maintenance and repairs have been a continuing and ongoing problem. Today, partly because of the narrow 10-foot lanes and steep grades, the bridge is considered functionally obsolete.

In ceremonies on April 29, 1966, a new $15 million bridge over the Cooper River, parallel to the Grace Bridge, was opened to traffic, and dedicated in honor of Chief Highway Commissioner Silas N. Pearman.

Actual construction of the two-mile bridge began during 1963, although preliminary work was begun in 1961. The structure was designed by the consulting firm of Howard, Needles, Tammen and Bergendoff. The bridge would carry northbound traffic on U.S. 17, while the older structure would carry southbound traffic. The 38-foot roadway of the new bridge would provide for three lanes of moving traffic, one lane of which would be reversible, so that it could be used for southbound traffic if and when there was a need.

The Pearman Bridge had vertical clearances of 150 feet over the Cooper River and 135 feet over Town Creek, and provided adequate horizontal clearances for the passage of the largest watercraft.

This information is courtesy of

If you're still here, I think I'll tell you some stories of mine about the bridge. If you have any, please tell em to me! Have a great day! Talk to you later!
posted by Christi at 10:21 PM | Permalink | 10 comments
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Today is Taryn's one month birthday! HOORAY! She has officially lived one whole month on the earth...well, outside of me, that is! She has endured about three trillion "hugs" and "kisses" from TJ. Then there are the trazillion kisses that I've given her! She has managed to live through TJ's "falling" on her, and his occasional "love taps" as well. She managed to get through her dry spell (as in skin), and now is suffering baby acne like a champ! She kicks and punches, and loves to exercise. We talk all the time. I do the grunt of it, but she loves to chime in with an occasional "Uh" and "Eh" and "Eeeee!" She's also shown a definite interest in Dora the Explorer already, but I'm sure that's just because she is so in love with her big ol' brother, and wants to love everything he does! She eats every three hours, about four ounces, but is working on making it four and a half ounces every four hours now. Wish us luck! She is about ten pounds heavier than all of her peers, and has already been exalted by her doctor with words such as "Perfect" and "Thriving". Wow! What a busy month this has been, and it's only just begun! I can't wait to see what comes next!

Happy Birthday Taryn!
Day 1First Day on Earth!DSCF0128Now!
posted by Christi at 8:11 PM | Permalink | 14 comments
A day of firsts!
So yesterday, TJ went to see his first movie in a theater. They have kids movies in the theater down the street during the summer, and I took TJ to see Garfield yesterday. Gina also took Blake, and thankfully so (for my sanity's sake!) It was free, so I figured, "Why not?" I was pretty happy, b/c he made it through a little over half of the movie before he was ready to go. I really wasn't expecting him to make it longer than half an hour, not to mention the fact that we got there half an hour early. When he started showing me the giant fan on the ceiling, I knew it was over for him! The only thing that wasn't cool was that I bought him some Mini M&M's, and paid $2 for them. I was thinking I would get some big movie-sized package of them, so paying too much wouldn't be as bad. However, I was wrong. After I paid, they handed me this tiny little pack (the one you get for about $.40 at Wal-Mart!)! Then, while in the theater, TJ tried to adjust himself in the seat that kept closing on him, and poured out half of them! Later, during the movie, I tried to just pour them in his hand, and he wasn't down with that. So he yelled, "Mommy, don't pour them in my hand!" and while he was doing so, knocked them and dumped out about half of what was still left! So in essence, I paid $2 for about three Mini M&M's! Lesson learned...

Afterwards, we went to this little playground they have at the end of the shopping center where the theater is. I didn't know they had a little water shooter thing, but I wasn't worried. I mean, I paid $2 (another $2 wasted!) a few weeks ago for TJ to go play at a big, awesome water park, and he would have no part in it. Knowing this, I said, "TJ, you can get in the water if you want to." Yeah, another lesson learned. He got DRENCHED! He had so much fun, and it was all I could do to get him out of it to go home! I thought I was prepared, b/c I had an extra little romper in his bag, which has been there for months now just waiting for its chance to get used. Yeah, found out that TJ actually has grown, and boy did he look silly in his little dress! He was about two inches longer than the romper, so I couldn't button it at the bottom! Fun stuff! He had SO much fun, though, and notice the big swelled diaper sticking out of his too heavy jean shorts that were falling down!
DSCF0131I love this picture!Splish splash!DSCF0141

Later, I was invited to go to the Faith Circle meeting at Two Peas in a Pot for my church. I was psyched, b/c I would get to be with other adults, and not b/c of children! So, for the first time ever, I hired a babysitter to come to our house! Thanks again to Gina, who recommended S, who babysits for them. He was awesome! I was nervous that TJ would misbehave (why, I don't know), so I think in the process of telling him about TJ, I tried to prepare him for every bad thing TJ could or would do. When I got home, S said, "Man, you made me think he was going to be some bad kid. He was great!" Oh, he totally made my day! TJ loved him! I knew he would though, b/c I had to feed the baby before I left, and by the time I did, TJ was like, "Yeah, bye," when I went to leave. Ummm, I suppose that's a good thing, sniffle sniffle...

Oh, and I had tons of fun at the Faith Circle meeting, too. I made a coffee cup that says "TJ and Taryn's MOMMY". Yes, it's lame, but I never claimed to have any artistic or creative talent whatsoever. However, I was only one of two people that didn't make a plate that had a pineapple or a palmetto tree on it. Those are so in now, I guess. So at least mine was unique...Yet another first, going to the meeting, that is...Hope they don't mind me showing them off...
The Faith Circle group

Anyway, that was quite long. You can see why I was totally pooped last night when I finally hit the sack! So, today we're doing...NOTHING! Well, aside from washing clothes and the like! I hope you have an exciting day full of lots of firsts, and I'll talk to you later.
posted by Christi at 11:30 AM | Permalink | 7 comments
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
I hope you don't mind, Mike
I stole this from my friend Mike's website, although I'm quite sure he didn't make it, so...

I Miss You, Daddy

Just a warning, it might make you cry. It made me cry.
posted by Christi at 1:41 PM | Permalink | 5 comments
Monday, July 11, 2005
My eyes hurt
I think that means I'm tired...

First off, let me direct you to Monkey Mama's Page. Her post today was quite nice, I must say.

Today, I took no pictures of my children. So, instead, I give you a pic of someone else whom I have a crush on, which Julia brought to my brain...
Is he not just totally HOT! Oh, Topher!

Okay, nothing special today, so I want to ask you yet another question. For those of you with two or more children, I ask you this: Did you ever feel weird calling yourself Mommy to the second child? Okay, like, I'll be sitting there holding Taryn, and I'll be talking to her, and I'll say, "I'm your mommy, and TJ's your brother...", something like that. Then, I'll feel all strange calling myself her mommy. I'll think, "No, I'm TJ's mommy." Or, I'll be holding her (I do that a lot, eh!), and I'll go and kiss her, and then I feel weird. I'll think, "No, I kiss TJ like that." Then I have to stop and readjust my brain to remember that I am her mommy, too, and that I'm perfectly allowed to love her as much as I do TJ. Like, sometimes when I'm with other people's kids, I'll hug them and kiss them on the forehead, and it will feel strange to me, b/c I really want to give them a big hug and kiss, but I feel like I shouldn't b/c I'm not their mommy. I wonder if TJ feels the same way? Like, I wonder if he sees me kiss her and says, "No, you can't kiss her, you're MY mommy." I could completely understand that, really. I mean, I have been his mommy for over two years now, and who is this strange little person living in our house now? I will say, though, he constantly tells me how much he loves her, and I tell him how much she loves him (b/c it's very obvious that she does!). It's so sweet! I asked Trey last night if he ever feels this way, and he just looked at me like maybe I had an alien growing out of my forehead or something. So, I pose this question to you, b/c I'm beginning to wonder if maybe there's something wrong with me (perhaps there is an alien growing out of my forehead, and it's making me have these silly thoughts!). Rest assured that my strange thoughts are not keeping me from kissing her and snuggling with her and just being totally in love with her, but still, sometimes I just freak out a little! So, what's up?

Okay, that's all for now. I hope you have an awesome day, and I'll talk to you later.
posted by Christi at 11:27 PM | Permalink | 9 comments
Sunday, July 10, 2005
A busy day, indeed!
The day started early, about 7:30 am. My Sunday School class was covering the monthly breakfast, and we were supposed to be there at 8:25. Well, that was my goal...but unfortunately I didn't make it there till almost 9. Not bad, considering I had two kids that weren't working with me at all. I didn't feel too bad, either, b/c another couple didn't show up until long after me, and they only had one baby to get ready, and two people to do it!

So it was Taryn's first trip to church today. I was excited. I dressed her all up in the dress that I have vowed she would wear as her first trip to church dress since I bought it. It fit wonderfully, and looked MAGNIFICENT on her! See for yourself:

I know, I know, beautiful baby. I couldn't have said it better myself...So anyway, we went to church. I suppose everything went well. She was an angel. TJ was very well behaved, and, although he fought it at first, I think he was glad to be back there to play with the couple of other kids in the room, and be away from me for a while(Or is it the other way around!). During the service, she went calmly to sleep while the organ played. It was pretty cool. I decided I'll just have to get an organ now! The only thing that wasn't all that cool was that another couple brought their baby in for the first time today, too. He's two weeks older than Taryn (to the day). Of course, the couple that are his parents have been going to the church for years now, and the mom is really outgoing and knows everyone. We are all in the same Sunday School class. So we were everywhere together. I don't know people very well yet, and I didn't really want to yell out to everyone to look at my baby. So, consequently, she was kinda overshadowed by the other little baby there. It was kinda like this: "OH, look at little Ethan! He's so adorable!, chat, chat...Well, gotta run now. (turn around) Oh, look, another little baby. She's cute. Bye!" I really need to get more involved and meet some of these people. I'll make that my goal. I guess it doesn't matter if anyone looked at her, really, except that I wanted everyone to see her absolutely adorable dress and little headband (I'm in love with those things! If it didn't look like I was squeezing her head off, I would have them on her 24-7). Honestly, though, the other mom handled it much better than I did. Whenever someone would say something to me, I wouldn't know what to say back except thank you. I need to work on that, but what do you say exactly? Oh well. It was wonderful to be back at church again. It makes me feel all good inside, and it was nice just to be around other adults for a bit!

Afterwards, we went down the street, and caught Gina, Wesley and kids before they left their church. I was SO happy that they are back! I have already promised them that I will hunt them down like bounty this week so TJ can play with Blake and Julia. He has done nothing for the last week but ask me when they can come play with him and eat all of our food (???). Plus, Blake hooked TJ up with a candy bar, which he ate half of for lunch...which reminds me, I'll be right back...

Ahhh, now that's better. Anyway, one more thing and I'll go. So TJ found this penny while we were visiting Wes's church. He was convinced that he needed to go to the store and spend it immediately, on candy of course! I thought it was kinda cute, and I figured it would teach him a little bit about how he has to pay for things before he can just have them. So I played along. We ran to Wal-Mart this afternoon for some stuff, and when we went to check out, he got to pick one piece of candy at the checkout. He picked a Push-Pop. Works for me. So I went to the cashier and told her that he was going to hand her the sucker, then a penny to "pay for it". She said fine. He hands her the sucker, she scans it and gives it back. Then he goes to hand her the penny, and she says, "You can keep it." Ummm, what! TJ was dumbfounded, with a very confused look on his face, and tried to give her the penny again. "You can keep it." Is there a law against hitting dumb cashiers? Now my child has no idea what to do, b/c Mommy specifically told him he can't have the candy until he pays for it. She won't let him pay for it! So he hands it to me, I try to get him to look away, and put the penny back in my purse (he actually lost the first penny he found, but I told him he dropped it in my purse!). So, lesson lost. A stupid person has botched it up. I guess you get what you pay for, and a penny won't get you far!

What's up with dumb cashiers harshing my vibe!?

Well, that's my day for you. Hope yours was great, and that tomorrow is, too. Talk to you later!

posted by Christi at 11:06 PM | Permalink | 8 comments
To quote Shania Twain...
Man, I feel like a woman! Yes, it's sad that it takes so little to make me happy. However, I FINALLY got around to dying my hair tonight. I've only needed to do this for about three months or so now. I have made a vow everyday to do it that night...then 1 am or so comes around, and well, no way! It probably looks like crap (it hasn't dried yet, so I have no idea), but at least I covered up my greys! Now I feel like a woman again. Yeah, that's all it took...

So, I've discovered just how wonderful a routine can really be. I made a daily schedule about a week ago, and posted it on the refrigerator. I've been sticking to it all week (well, w/in an hour or so), and it's starting to work. I'm beginning to just know when I'm going to do stuff now, and stick to it. The best part, though, is TJ. He now knows when to expect me to stop what I'm doing and play with him one-on-one (I scheduled it in twice a day), and he knows when to expect everything else, too. He likes knowing that he gets to take a bath around 7, eat lunch around 2, etc...Of course, today he was particulary rotten (he wouldn't stop hitting the baby this morning b/c I was on the phone with my mom), so he had to go to bed. Little did I know that he would actually fall asleep. So his nap was moved back a couple of hours, and I was lost! It wasn't too bad, though. However, this routine has helped with his behavior, overall. Here's my big problem, though. I'm afraid to leave the house. I mean, I scheduled in time to leave, but I'm afraid I'll run over and throw it all off! Gotta work on that...

One more thing. TJ is ready to get potty-trained. Everytime we go in the bathroom, he wants to sit on it and go pee (he just pushes, but nothing comes out). I'm ready, too. I'm thinking of starting after next week (Trey's off Thurs.-Sat., so we're probably going to my mom's). What I want to know is if you can offer any tips before I begin. I mean, I've read up and stuff, but I think the real-world stuff might help more. You guys can tell me what doesn't work, too. I'm conflicted about getting pull-ups or not. If I don't have to, I certainly don't want to. Anyway, please let me know.

Okay, I hope you all have a wonderful day! I'll talk to you later!

My sleeping beauties...
posted by Christi at 12:10 AM | Permalink | 12 comments
Saturday, July 09, 2005
this is an audio post - click to play
posted by Christi at 5:41 PM | Permalink | 13 comments
What have I gotten myself into!
"Yes, Taryn, I think that the terrorist bombings were absolutely atrocious! I am not a fan of terrorism."
"Oh, TJ, I couldn't agree with you more. Terrorism is bad."

"Uh, Mom! Do you mind? We're trying to talk here!"
posted by Christi at 12:32 AM | Permalink | 2 comments
Friday, July 08, 2005
My big ol' girl!
Taryn had her two week checkup today. Of course, she's over three weeks old, now, but hey, so we're a little behind! Anyway, she is now 10 lbs. 7 oz. (70%), 22 3/4 in. long (88-90%), and has a 38 cm head (60%). She's already almost as long (23 3/4 in.) as TJ was at 2 1/2 months! Can you believe it? My little girl has already grown almost 2 in. and over two pounds! Geesh! Again, the doctor said PERFECT, and that whatever we're doing to keep it up! She had to get her Hepatitis B shot today, too. That wasn't so fun, but really, she didn't do too badly. She screamed, but only for a few seconds. Thank goodness, b/c I was not ready to deal with that little painful cry...just makes me want to cry! Undoubtedly, though, she knew something was up, b/c she woke up promptly at 6 am this morning, and would not go back to sleep for anything. I think she was excited to find out how big she is! Oh, and it appears that she has prematurely hit puberty. Not only has she gotten tons of acne on her face all of a sudden, but there are other signs, too. Last night she asked if she can start dating, and she wanted to go to the mall to check out guys with her friends. She cries and has temper-tantrums about the silliest stuff, and tells me I'm ruining her life when I tell her no. Oh, and the clothes! She's been wanting to wear short little dresses lately, with NO BLOOMERS!!! Don't even get me started on the make-up! Well, at least if she goes through it now, I don't have to worry so much. Right now she can't talk, walk, or dress herself, so this is an ideal time for puberty. Maybe that means that by the time she's puberty age, she'll be much too mature to mess with those nasty boys and have an attitude...right?

You can't see it very well, but her face is totally broken out with little teeny-tiny zits everywhere! It reminds me of pregnancy!

So I was reading Anvilcloud's post on the Fourth of July about America. It was nice, and I liked it. It made me proud to be American. Then I read the comments. Then I read some stuff on Mr. Haney's post about the bombing in London. Then I read the comments. You know, people really don't like America...even a lot of Americans. Like, most of the world seems to think that everything bad in the world is our fault. Nevermind giving us any credit for the good stuff that we are involved in. I'll admit, I don't like the war, I hate the thought of war, period. I really don't feel like we should have gotten involved in all that stuff. However, we're in it now, and so far good has come from it. Our country gives so much to the rest of the world, too. Yeah, I think the rich are stingy, and their piddly little hundreds of thousands here and there mean nothing to them, except something to say they've done good. But you know, I can't say I ever hear about the rich of other countries being given a hard time to donate to every cause. In other countries does the entire population get asked to help out elsewhere when something bad in the world happens? One guy wrote about how our country was founded on destroying indians and the like. Well, that's true, and our country definitely has its share of problems to be embarrassed about. However, I would like to point out that our country was founded by people from OTHER COUNTRIES. Most of the people that did a lot of the stuff in history were going on the way they were raised in their home countries. Those same countries that now criticize us for everything. Hey, I think a lot of the stuff that went on and goes on is wrong, but you know, sometimes some bad has to happen to get to the good. Again, I'm not for the war at all, and I think Bush is just a complete idiot. Our country has made mistakes, plenty of them, but who can honestly sit here and tell me that every other country in the world has never made a mistake? I'm not super patriotic, but hey, I am pretty happy to live in this country. I think we've got it pretty damn good here.

Oh, and I didn't write this so that strange people from out of nowhere would come and write long dissertations about why my opinion is wrong. I just felt like saying it. I'm quite sure that my opinion is based on very little fact, as I really don't keep up with world politics and news (it's too depressing, and I have enough to worry about w/o it). Anyway, this is just how I feel, and no matter what you say, it won't change. So don't waste your time. I hope you all have a great day, and I'll see you soon!

Sometimes you just feel like you need a little mental readjustment!
posted by Christi at 11:44 AM | Permalink | 11 comments
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
It seems much worse...
In light of the problems that others are suffering in the world, mine seem so meaningless. I mean, really, so we have money problems, so what! There are people out there suffering world hunger, natural disasters, all kinds of stuff...even money problems much worse than mine! So you would think that I would be able to keep this in mind, and focus on the good things I have going for me. I mean, look at Gage's mom. She's got the right idea, completely having faith in God and just concerning herself with praying for her son's recovery. I so want to be that way. I know, deep down, that there is no reason to worry, and that God will make sure that everything turns out okay. If not, then that's what His plan was, and I have no control over it either way. Still, though, I just can't drop it all and think that way. It's quite frustrating to me. What's worse is that I'm letting it spill over into other areas of my life, and my mood is affecting how I treat my family and just how I think in general. This can't be good. I hear that sometimes after you have a baby your hormones are all out of whack, and that you get kinda depressed (not post-partum or anything) or something. I think that's me right now. I want to be able to just send my worries to God, like I was doing before the baby was born, and not worry about it anymore.

I don't think Trey gets it, though. I think that, in his mind, A: the only thing that's changed is that there is just one more little person in the house, that just needs to be fed every few hours, with an occasional diaper change. B: I am just my normal old self. C: the fact that I am doing all of the stuff that I have to do everyday means I can handle it. D: I do nothing all day, but act tired when he gets home. E: I think he does nothing all day at work, and he's not tired. F: I don't care that he's tired b/c I want him to do stuff on his days off to help me out. G: everyday for me is a day off. Well, I could be wrong. However, this is how I feel, and I'm not happy. I'm sure he feels differently, and he's unhappy with me as well. I keep thinking that I should just go back to work, so I can be seen around here as someone who's doing something worthwhile and bringing in some money. However, that won't change the fact that we now have two children that must be taken care of, whether I work or not, and they are not going back to Lancaster even one day a week to get their babysitting. That almost killed me when TJ had to go three days a week. So, if I go back to work, then we will have to pay for daycare, which will probably eat up all the money I make. Plus, my kids will not be mine, but some products of a system that hasn't done much to impress me as of yet. I just really don't like the impression I get lately of the impression of what I do around here. I am worn out, and I don't feel appreciated. I feel like I'm doing a terrible job at what I'm doing, and that I have no purpose on this earth, except to get on Trey's nerves.

Look at me...this is not what I meant to post today. Please don't read this, and turn around now and run. See what I mean. I can't just set it all aside and be happy. I think this is enough for today. I'm sure I just burned another be it.

Have a great day! Later.
posted by Christi at 11:15 PM | Permalink | 12 comments
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
The results are in, drumroll please...
Okay, I guess the overall winner for the baby's name is Taryn. I'm happy with that. Although I would have been happy with Reese, too, since I picked them both! However, if you choose to still call her Reese, then so be it. That's fine with me, too.

Oh, and my friend Ashley was also kind enough today to point out to me that my crush, the lead singer of Chevelle, looks strikingly like Jimmy Fallon. Huh, interesting, I thought, and then realized that she was right. Who knew, but I think Jimmy Fallon is hot! Oh, and it seems that his name is Pete Loeffler, and that the rest of the band are all related to him, too...Interesting.

Looking like Jimmy Fallon...

Looking like Jason Lee...

I have lots of other thoughts, but I'm in a really pissy mood right now, and I have no desire to go into it. I hope you have a good day, and I'll see you later.
posted by Christi at 11:08 PM | Permalink | 7 comments